First Day of Hospital Life – Dr Kamal Amzan

Source: www.warcom.com.au

Source: www.warcom.com.au

I was shaking – needle in one hand and sweat on the other.

I couldn’t see properly as sweat was dripping from my forehead, and some stung my eyes.

The only thing hurting more than my eyes was my pride.

The patient was looking at me somewhat bewildered, eyeing my name tag that says ‘Dr Kamal Amzan’ and wondering whether he should believe it, or whether I’m one of the fake doctors he read so often in the newspapers.

After all I was a nervous wreck and was not projecting the image of a ‘doctor’ one would have in mind.

All the while in the background I could hear staff nurses talking to me:

“Dr I need an IV line for bed 2 to 10.”

“Dr I need you to prescribe medicine for bed 11 – 20.”

“Dr Kamal, I think you should look at bed two. He’s complaining of chest pain.”

“Dr Kamal, the relatives are waiting for an update from you. Better see them quick before they file a complaint. 

“Dr Kamal please get consent for bed 2. The operating theater has already called twice!”

“Aiya Dr Kamal. I cannot read your plans!! ”

Best part is they say this almost all at the same time.

Since today was my first day at work (some say first day of life) I was asked to tag a senior colleague. This routine is to last for 2 weeks from 7 am to 12 midnight. There were only 3 of us in the whole ward.

I thought they were joking, but apparently not.

My life, at that moment literally flashed before my eyes. Nothing in my medical school prepared me for this.

Medical school versus real life.

For the benefit of those not in the medical line, and medical students, medical school, focus more on the art and the academia of medicine. We learn about diseases, what they look like under the microscope, the history and how they are best-managed.

We have practical sessions and bedside teachings.

Working life on the other hand doesn’t allow such idealism and luxury. It is about diagnosing illness and instituting the correct management in the shortest time possible using whatever limited resources we have. We’re dealing with real life patients with real illnesses, who may die from our inept ability.

Housemanship therefore focuses more on military like responsibilities, discipline, building physical, emotional and psychological strength to survive to live a life as a doctor.

Not to mention learning the paperwork and all the red tapes our government hospitals are well-known for.

Those who work in a computerised hospital may have a different experience. I would assume that their system makes life easier. But back in 2007, at the hospital I was assigned to, everything involved filling up forms. From blood takings to x – rays, from tracing blood results to tracking patient’s old notes.

We use different forms for each procedures. So imagine if we have to take 3 different blood samples for a patient, and multiply that by 35 patients in the ward – how many forms do we have to fill?

Forget about a houseman friendly hospital. We’re not even eco – friendly.

My colleagues used to tell me that it can only get better, and all I had to do was persevere.

In hindsight, they were right. Things got better after a while but not because the workload and responsibilities got lesser (on the contrary you’ll have more), but because you got better and better.

And sooner or later it will dawn upon you that it doesn’t end with your housemanship. It only ends with your life.

That is the defining moment, when you finally realise that this is the life that you have always wanted.

Congratulations, you’ve made it. You are now a Doctor.

Dr Kamal Amzan is currently practicing Public Health in Sabah, and at the same time a Columnist for The Malay Mail Online. You can reach him at drkamalamzan@gmail.com and on his twitter @drkamalamzan

 

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8 comments for “First Day of Hospital Life – Dr Kamal Amzan

  1. Q
    February 27, 2014 at 8:27 am

    Doc, I am a fourth year med student in Trinity UK. Have always been worried about working life because I think there is a disconnection between a student’s life and working life. I thought it got better after the degree,you know,like light at the end of tunnel but apparently not. Haha. I think I better do more attachments in Malaysian hospitals when I go back for my holidays!

    Thanks Doc. Eye opener:)

  2. Aish
    February 27, 2014 at 10:03 am

    You should not be sweating for taking blood on the first day of housemanship, first day of third year medical school maybe
    I’d be sweating for the guy with chest pain 🙂

    • Elis
      February 27, 2014 at 11:33 am

      Made me reminisce the old days. Started my HOship in 2002. Those trained overseas are not necessary equipped to draw blood and cannula insertion when reporting for duty!

  3. Alaina
    February 27, 2014 at 10:51 pm

    You brought back good memories to me. Miss those days but dont want to relive them!

  4. firdaus
    February 28, 2014 at 4:03 pm

    Just for addendum..Using computerised system not as easy as some has assume..it has it pro’s and con’s..
    it still need to be learnt, simple clicks wont do it.. u need to be vigilant of what u tick, types and order.. u still need to fill forms when its necessary eg. Request for gxm/special outsource ix/duplicate consent etc… the good part is u can trace all the ix stat, previous important medical hx and hx of admission..

    its not the questions of which one is easier (old continuation sheet vs computerised system).. in the end, its back to how efficient u are in utilising both system…

    just sharing

  5. MA
    March 4, 2014 at 3:39 pm

    Excellent read! Can you also write about your experience as a HO? I mean while you are undergoing HO training plz? Where did you study and where did you do your HOship doc? I cannot wait to graduate but am so worried that I’m not ready for what’s next! Cant wait for your next piece!!

  6. Trainee
    March 8, 2014 at 10:29 pm

    try relive the \’HO-ship\’ experience when u r family medicine 1st and 2nd yr trainee. 🙂

  7. Nisa
    May 30, 2014 at 1:41 pm

    Salam Dr.Kamal,Hehe, I can still remember you sweating buckets in the ward, running and rushing here and there :)I was a medical student back then when you were a junior houseman. A very nice and helpful HO. And inspiring too. Good luck im your future undertaking!

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